My first encounter

A lot of things happen when you are stupid! And decisions are often taken in a split second. 

I never knew when did I actually get interested in Homosexuality. It surely stems from the childhood. I am not one with a history of an abuse or any such incident. My earliest memory of homosexuality goes to my late teens, when I bumped into a porn video of a guy riding another guy. Like most Indian teens, my sex education also began watching porn. Except that there are genitalia, the process of how sex happens waa never taught in school. As an adolescent, I've always wondered how the sperm from the male reaches the uterus of the female. The process of penetration was never taught. The first time I saw the mating process was in a porn video. 

Story aside, my first homosexual encounter was in 2014. I had discovered a gay dating site then and had a new profile up there. I was excited to open the profile and upload nude pictures of myself. I was an exhibitionist - but always scared of taking the risk. I had plenty of photos of myself, and this website was my opportunity to share it with the world!

My expectations! (Image taken from Google Images)

I've always felt that Indians are sex starved, and homosexuals are no different. I was there for sex as well! My profile had pics of myself and I was a bottom as well. The account got messages in plenty - some of them straightaway asking for phone number and some with images of their d**k. 

How did I decide to be a bottom? Rather, why did I adopt that role?

Males aren't built to "receive". The patriarchal society has always taught that males are built to give. The gender symbol is also of an arrow on a circle. Receiving is considered a "lower category". I am submissive in nature and I've always had an emotional connect to the guy receiving in videos. I've always loved watching big d**ks going in and out of the anus. I've always wanted to be there receiving another male organ in my hole. 

Back to 2014: My bottom profile got a lot of messages. I responded to most of them - and very often the people stop messaging soon after. One profile responded well and we got to chatting for long. I shared my mobile number and we communicated over message. I was in his city for a conference, and I was staying all alone in a hotel room. What better than that? I invited him over. He agreed to come. 

I was fresh to the scene and had no inkling of the frauds in this scene. I didn't have a second thought about what if he turned out to be a robber! What if he captured my nudes and blackmailed me later! No such thoughts went through. 

A little after I invited him, he messaged me saying he is near my hotel. I replied back with my room number. I suddenly remembered about protection - asked him to get some while coming. I was all set to receive a male organ into me. 

10 minutes later, the calling bell rings - I opened my door to a complete stranger. All I knew was he was in the same profession as I was, and was from the same state that I was from. 

He walks in. We introduce each other - sit on the bed talking random things. We tried to find out how we were attracted to the same gender and not to the opposite. It turns out that both of us were virgins. After talking for a while, we decide to explore our bodies. I was the first to go nude. He undressed after me. 

I was seeing another adult d**k for the very first time. He was erect already. I wanted to suck, but he wasn't ready. The most common known step in sex is that the receiver gets to her/his knees, sucks off the d**k of the giver and then the penetration happens. I expected the same. However, we wasn't ready for an oral. Not that I knew how it goes or what it tastes like. 

We cuddled on each other for a while. I tried giving him a hand job, which he didn't want either. He didn't touch my organ - the stereotypical giver doesn't do anything on the receiver (all based on my knowledge from porn movies). 

Play safe, Always!

We were finally ready to do the thing. He pulled out the packet of condom he was carrying. He dressed his thing using the condom and got ready to do it. I was on my fours in doggy position - he slowly brought his tool near and began banging. He was actually playing between the cheeks of my buttocks - he hadn't penetrated. He tried A few times to penetrate - but nothing happened! I think he released his load into the condom by now and his thing shrank. Except the cuddling, i was left high and dry!

I was disappointed. I was expecting a lot of things on my first encounter - all expectations watching porn stars taking in big d**ks with almost ease. The top just slides into the bottom and they bang with ease. I expected the same - alas!

I made visible my disappointment. He packed up soon later and walked off from the room. I shagged off to release my high and went to sleep. I was disappointed at what happened and even deleted my dating account. 

Wait for the next part to know how things evolved from there!